The Story

Transformation story

From Kimberley 1.0 to Kimberley 2.0

Born in the Seychelles with Thai and English roots, Kimberley has lived between London, the Cotswolds and Spain — always moving, always searching.

For over 15 years, she has been around addiction, recovery programmes, rehab and relapse cycles. This section introduces the fall, the turning point and the rise.

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Why the Implant Felt Better for Me Than Taking a Pill Every Day

For me, the Antabuse implant felt safer than relying on tablets.

Not because tablets do not work — they absolutely can — but because addiction is unpredictable.

When you struggle with alcoholism, your mindset can completely change in a matter of hours. You can wake up determined to stay sober and by the evening be convincing yourself that one drink is fine.

That is the frightening part of addiction.

The constant mental negotiation.

And I knew myself well enough to know that if I had to physically choose every single morning to take a tablet, there would eventually be a day where my addicted brain would try to talk me out of it.

Especially during emotional moments.

Stress.
Grief.
Loneliness.
Anger.
Shame.

Those were always my biggest triggers.

The implant removed that daily debate.

It created distance between me and impulsive decisions.

Instead of waking up every day asking:
“Am I going to stay sober today?”
the decision had already been made in advance.

That gave me peace mentally.

Because addiction can be exhausting. The constant bargaining in your own mind becomes draining:
“Maybe I’m cured.”
“Maybe I can drink normally now.”
“Maybe one won’t hurt.”
“I’ll stop again tomorrow.”

The implant interrupted that cycle.

It gave me stability while I focused on actually rebuilding my life instead of fighting the same internal battle every morning.

It also made recovery feel more serious to me.

More intentional.

Almost like I was telling myself:
“This time, I’m fully committing.”

And honestly, I needed that level of commitment because my drinking had become dangerous.

For some people, tablets work perfectly well because they can consistently take them and stick to the routine.

But I knew my addiction was too manipulative for that.

I needed something stronger than motivation.

I needed accountability even on the days when I did not trust myself.

That is what the implant represented for me.

Not control from other people.